Beyonce 1+1 Video

Few days late with the Video. Anywho, I absolutely love this song. I heard her sing it a cappella and I fell in love with it. If you don't like this song, you must not have any love in your heart or soul. Its a powerful song. I never really thought of Beyonce as that good of a singer, but when i heard her sing it a cappella she fucking blew me away. You have to be in love to sing the song the way she sang it. Anywho, this video if nice, it makes me love the song even more. As a was looking at the video, I couldn't help but think of the word STRONG. Some say she sold her soul to the illuminati and all that jazz. IDK, either way the song and video are dope. I love It

Indescribable Feelings

So I don't really know how to described what I'm feeling like right now, but Its not good feelings. I just feel.... blah. Well its kind of more that blah, maybe a mix of emotions. I feel overwhelmed, a bit angry, sad, confused, I don't know where I stand on certain things, I'm fearful of the the unknown, failing, succeeding. I'm just feeling a lot of stuff, I'm desperate, I still live with my parents. Don't have a job, bout to turn 21, I'm still being treated like a child. It's like the harder and harder I try to get a job, the more I get rejected, I don't care what type of job it is as long as it pays, I haven't wanted to live in this house since I was twelve years old. Its like I cant get out of this muthafucker. No matter what I try to do. Its a big pity party over here. I just want to have my own and not have to answer to anyone. Negativity is somehow breaking down my positive wall, just chipping away at it. I just fell so lost and misunderstood. I feel like no one understands, But I guess its suppose to feel like that, I don't know. I'm just mentally tired. I'm psyching my self out with school. Its starting to feel like a burden and not worth my time, But its not, I actually really like school. But I don't know. I didn't do as good as I could have last semester and I'm not really liking that, so this semester, I gotta do what I gotta do, no going off course, no slacking off and being lazy. As far a relationship or my love life is concerned, Its all in the air. I don't know where stand with certain people, I feel like a decision needs to be made. Immediately. I'm just tired of not knowing. Its getting old kind of fast. This is just one of those diary moments, I needed to vent about some stuff. don't feel that much better, but a little bit,I would probably feel better if I was having sex, in my own place, with a job, LMAO.